These Are The Words I Would Say

When your spouse dies, there is a mountain of paperwork to take care of. It is a tough time. Not only are you grieving the loss of your husband, but then you are expected to have your wits about you to handle bank accounts, life insurance claims, health insurance, etc. etc. etc.

Once the bank learned that Jim was “deceased,” they froze all our accounts that had Jim’s name on them. I was on my way to the bank to give them the death certificate to be able to have access to my accounts again. These were the days when my grief was so heavy at times it was difficult to function.  Everything was an effort. I often felt like my feet were stuck in the mud. I got in my car and started out for the bank. I came to the first stop sign in our subdivision and stopped.  The situation became overwhelming to me. Without really thinking, I screamed as loud as I could even surprising myself a little. It was unthinkable that my husband was dead – at age 45! This wasn’t supposed to happen! My other friends still had their husbands. I screamed again so hard that my throat hurt. Then the tears came. I cried as I drove. I cried and cried. I wondered once again how I would be able to live life without Jim. As I continued to lament, a song came on the radio and I listened. It was a song I had heard before but never thought much about it.  This time I listened to the words as if Jim were saying them to me. And then more tears began to flow.  But they were tears of amazement at God's love for me. Again, God provided more answers to my questions of how to go on in life without Jim. It amazes me to see how gentle and caring God is with me, to speak to me at a time that I needed to hear from Him the most. These are the words I heard:


Three in the morning, and I’m still awake
So I picked up a pen and a page
And I started writing just what I’d say If we were face to face
I’d tell you just what you mean to me
Tell you these simple truths


Be strong in the Lord
And never give up hope
You’re gonna do great things
I already know
God’s got His hand on You
So don’t live life in fear
Forgive and forget
But don’t forget why you’re here
Take your time and pray
These are the words I would say


Last time we spoke you said you were hurting
And I felt your pain in my heart
I want to tell you that I keep on praying
That love will find you where you are
I know cause I’ve already been there
So please hear these simple truths


Be strong in the Lord
And never give up hope
You’re gonna do great things
I already know
God’s got His hand on You
So don’t live life in fear
Forgive and forget
But don’t forget why you’re here
Take your time and pray
These are the words I would say ...


from one simple life to another I will say…
come find peace in the Father
 
Be strong in the Lord
And never give up hope
You’re gonna do great things I already know
God’s got His hand on You
So don’t live life in fear
Forgive and forget
But don’t forget why you’re here
Take your time and pray
And thank God for each day
His love will find a way
These are the words I would say